yours truly

im not ready for any relationship as yet. i think i love him as a friend only.
i still cant get rid of what happened btwn me and noly off my mind.
what happened to me and haikel remained as it is..
why go on when you think both of you are not ready for serious rship.
before the rship went any further , i took this brave step ,
to call off the relationship. i msged him after his few days of missing in action.
honestly , i dont like to ruin a person name.
he did nothing bad to me.. he just went missing dats all..
to tell you the truth , haikel is a nice guy.. believe me..
i pity him , i know he has alot of problems..
so i just thought why not we take it easy first , if we're really meant for each other ,
then we're bound to be with each other.
why rush ? that's true..
i dont want to cheat my own feelings as well as his too , i know i dont love him as wholeheartedly.
but i believe that feelings can develop when youre in relationship.
i never regret having you by my side all this while , dearest one.

and again , im not waiting for anyone.
if i think im up for a rship , then ill be soon.
yes a serious rship please.
:)

take care everyone!

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dearest haikel ,
your campmates have been asking me bout you.. where the hell are you..?
i hope youre fine.. i know you ever mentioned to me about your op.
i know you dont want me to know bout your op.
but please do take care , haikel.
i seriously hope youre fine.
yes i do miss you aites haikel.
take care dearest one.

tears just roll down thinking bout how you use to tell me about your late sister.
and about how hard your family life is.
kau bukan jahat orgnye , you just have to find the right path.
and please ppl , treasure your loved ones.
haizz...
again , i never regret giving a part of me to you.
muaccckss !